Back From The Borderline is a podcast about depth psychology, symbolism, spirituality, consciousness, and the search for a more meaningful life.I started this show years ago while trying to understand my own mind. Somewhere along the way, the questions became much bigger than me. They led into Carl Jung, mythology, Christian mysticism, dreams, tarot, philosophy, esotericism, religious history, artificial intelligence, and the symbolic patterns that quietly shape the way we see ourselves and the world around us.The word borderline has taken on its own meaning over the years. It speaks to the edge almost all of us eventually...
Latest episodes
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1 h 54
You’ve Studied the Mysteries. But Have They Changed You? (Anne Baring, Part 9: Epilogue)
We’ve learned so much about healing, but have we learned how to love?After eight conversations with 95-year-old Jungian analyst and author Anne Baring, I found myself questioning s…
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1 h 04
The Way of the Rose: Healing the Heart & the Sacred Marriage (Anne Baring, Part 8)
For seven conversations, Anne Baring and I have been investigating the forgotten feminine face of God. We’ve explored Sophia, Mary Magdalene, the Grail, and the religious tradition…
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1 h 45
The Cathars, the Inquisition and the Women Who Defied Rome (Anne Baring Part 7)
In medieval southern France, a woman stood up during a religious debate and challenged the men who claimed the authority to speak for God. A Catholic cleric told her to return to h…
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1 h 18
The Black Madonna, the Grail and the Survival of the Feminine Tradition (Anne Baring Part 6)
A spiritual teacher dies, her community has to continue without her, and centuries later the written record can no longer tell us exactly how her teachings moved from one generatio…
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1 h 16
Mary Magdalene, The Beloved Companion (Anne Baring Part 5)
Mary Magdalene has spent nearly two thousand years buried under other people’s interpretations of her. Repentant prostitute. Devoted disciple. Apostle to the apostles. Mystic. Wife…
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1 h 21
The Essenes and the Women Around Yeshua (Anne Baring Part 4)
What kind of spiritual world could have formed Yeshua before Christianity existed?This is Part 4 of my multi-part series of conversations with Anne Baring, recorded across Septembe…
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1 h 25
Gnostic Sophia and the Suppressed Christian Mysteries (Anne Baring Part 3)
What if early Christianity contained a path centered on direct knowledge of the divine within us, and that path was pushed outside the Church that survived?This is Part 3 of my mul…
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1 h 05
The Lost Civilization of the Goddess (Anne Baring Part 2)
What if the history of Europe contains a civilization most of us were never taught about?This is Part 2 of my multi-part series of conversations with Anne Baring, recorded across S…
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1 h 29
The Forgotten Feminine Face of God (Anne Baring Part 1)
For thousands of years, the Western image of God became increasingly male. Anne Baring has spent much of her life studying what we lost when the feminine disappeared from our under…
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1 h 58
How to Tell When a Spiritual Teacher Is Full of Shit
In 2020, I almost paid $4,000 for a shadow work course. One of the first books I was told to read was Carolyn Elliott’s Existential Kink. I read it, tried to understand what I was…
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1 h 53
Aleister Crowley’s Thelema: Sex Magick and the Problem With the Prophet
Aleister Crowley had a beautiful idea, and then he built a religion around himself.This episode takes Thelema seriously enough to examine what Crowley was actually teaching. True W…
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57 min
The Braced Body: The Spiritual Cost of Always Being in Control (Part 3)
I’ve spent a lot of this series thinking about what happens when the body gets so used to effort that it forgets how to stop. By the time I got to this final episode, I found mysel…
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1 h 04
The Braced Body: Why Rest Feel Unsafe & How to Let Go (Part 2)
Your body can be exhausted and still refuse to rest. You lie down, your jaw stays tight, your shoulders keep working, and some part of you remains ready for the next demand.This is…
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57 min
The Braced Body: Why You’re Tense Even When Nothing Is Wrong (Part 1)
Do you clench your jaw without noticing? Do your shoulders stay tense even when you’re finally sitting down to rest? Does your body still feel like it’s working long after the day…
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1 h 04
What Do We Do With a Broken Spiritual Inheritance?
A lot of us are walking around with religious trauma and a God-shaped hole.I was raised inside a version of Christianity, and I know what it can leave in the body. Shame, fear, sex…
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1 h 11
UFOs, AI, and the Religion of the Unconscious (Live at Contact in the Desert 2026)
This year, I had the chance to attend Contact in the Desert, which is a conference devoted to UFOs, psi phenomena, consciousness, and anomalous experience. While I was there, I joi…
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51 min
Mary Magdalene and the End of Spiritual Childhood
This week, I was doing an I Ching reading, and one line stood out to me: “To find what you seek, leave the child and follow the adult.” This episode was inspired by that line. I us…
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1 h 36
The Occult Teacher We Need Right Now: Dion Fortune, Psychic Hygiene, and the Magick of the Mind
Dion Fortune was one of the great occult teachers of the twentieth century, and one of my personal favorites.In this episode, I’m joined by Ike Baker for a conversation about Fortu…
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31 min
The Skill AI Can Never Replace (And Why I’m Teaching Tarot)
This episode is the opening lesson from my new Patreon series, House of Cards.House of Cards is an ongoing study of the Rider-Waite-Smith tarot through depth psychology, mythology,…
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1 h 05
The Arrogance of Too Much Empathy
This might be the most personally confronting episode I’ve recorded in a long time.A few days ago, I had to send a text message I had been absolutely dreading. I spent days worryin…